THE ANATOMY OF INCANTATIONS & INVOCATIONS

And so here we are...

They tell you to get a job and be respectable. You get a job and are respectable but you aren't respected. They tell you to work hard to make your dreams come true. You work hard but your dreams don't come true. They tell you that you need money to support your family. You make money but it's never enough to support your family. They tell you to stop complaining about injustice. You stop complaining about injustice and become a willing victim. They tell you to make more money to solve your problems. You make more money but it still is never enough to solve your problems. They tell you to follow the law. But those who create and enforce the laws don't follow the laws they create and enforce. They tell you stop talking about racism because talking about it makes it worse. You stop talking about racism and it becomes worse. They tell you to vote because you can't make change if you don't and that your vote matters. You vote and the electoral College puts party over principle and the popular vote which proves that your vote, infact, doesn't matter. They raise the minimum wage making you feel like maybe, just maybe, you'll be able to get ahead. Then prices go up as the minimum wage goes up, so you really haven't gained anything and getting ahead remains a pipe dream. They take money from your paycheck for State and Federal taxes and Social Security. When you need social security, they stole it, used it, never paid it back and call you a "free loader" looking for a hand out. An African-American was President of the United States for two terms. Politicians, the rich, corporations, Racists and the ignorant voted for a rich, racist, inarticulate, corporate, elitist demogogue with no ability or experience to govern and no inkling of the needs of the American people as a unified nation, because an African-American was President of the United States for two terms.

And so...

here we find ourselves on the crumbling, raggedy edge of tomorrow. What shall we do?

We shall survive.

Like our ancestors, we must endure. We must never forget. We must fight for our future. We must survive. We must survive and wade in the  waters of inequity in this dark night of the soul until we reach the light of freedom, equality, equity, respect, genuine justice and reciprocity. Forgiveness is not possible and no healing can occur if guilt or hurtful past actions are not accepted. Rather than wait for hate, greed, evil, pain, oppression and sorrow to heal itself or us for that matter, let us heal ourselves. Let your heart's be the lamp that guides others through the night, untill we all embrace the truth and finally arrive to what is healing, forgiving and right.

Keep fighting. Not with each other, but for each other. Keep fighting not to oppress, but against the oppressor. Keep fighting. The new revolution is through evolution for as our oppressors can only revolve, we like our ancestors before us have it within us to evolve. Keep fighting. Not for the Slave Masters or our enslavement to a system designed to crush our very soul, but for the emancipation of all who are enslaved by the Machiavellian system and it's socioeconomic, religious, racially biased, elitist, manipulative strategies designed to oppress us all.

Like our ancestors before us, we will survive. We must survive.

We always do.

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UNDERSTANDING CANDLE MAGIC

MY SOUL'S COVENANT

I have not forgotten...

MY SOUL'S COVENANT

"To the All.

I will remain true to the covenant. The covenant I made with my ancestors when my gifts revealed themselves.

I will protect the innocent and teach them to protect themselves from spiritual evil. I will walk the red road of life and the blue road of death both at the same time, healing, defending, protecting, learning and teaching, along the winding road of this life. This is my souls primary mission.

My mission is my path, my destiny, my life's greatest work.

I will become whatever I need to become to accomplish my mission. I am a spiritual shape-shifter. I am the Sphinx. I will not be deterred or denied. I will not allow emotional, physical, mental or spiritual pain, to lessen my passion or my principles.

My willing sacrifice to my mission is the spiritual stigmata I will endure with dignity and acceptance. I will forever remain true to my mission. In this life and the next.

In youth or old age, in poverty or wealth, in illness or good health, in times of great sorrow or greatest joy, I will stay true to my charge.

My ancestors, the ancient ones, the first ones of magic, spirit, power and light. The Angels, The Elementals, The Shaitans, The Jinns, The Chthonic Ones, The Transcendentals, The Ascended, The Inter-Dimensionals, The Watchers,  The Winged Serpents and their descendants. The Healers, The Witches, The Shamans, The Medicine Men and Women, The Magic Workers and the hidden supernaturals. All I am, all I know, all I will become, I share with all for we are all one.

As I have always done. As I will always do. In this life and the next.

This is my souls covenant with the all."

SPIRITUAL QUANDARIES

What if...

What if Humanity was genetically engineered by a Inter-Galactic and Multi-Dimensional Council of beings, millions of years old. What if the reason for humanity's existence was to evolve to such a degree, that we would be able not only to take our place in this hypothetical Inter-Galactic, Multi-Dimensional Council but also to help bridge the spiritual and material divide in effect, merging the spiritual planes and the material planes of existence and states of being into one new experience, which would help other beings who are highly evolved but lack the essential spiritual components needed for transcending the physical, enabling them to spiritually ascend?

What if the divide between worlds and other Dimensions is not only about understanding time, space and speed but incorporating sound / frequency, vibration, gravity and electricity?

What if Psychokinetic energy is not solely an energy source but an actual dimension and a key filament in which the living Universe uses for its own evolution as well as for the evolution of everything in it?

What if the whole of humanity, every single man, woman and child is one complete entity, a super being if you will, so impossibly massive, that it could only become physical in fragments?

What if...

DON'T TAKE THINGS SO PERSONAL

DON'T TAKE THINGS SO PERSONAL...

Have you ever been called a faggot to your face? I have. Many times. 

Have you ever been called a nigger to your face? I have. Many times.

Have you ever been told not to speak a language other than English in public? I have. Many times.

Have you ever been fired from a job because of your sexuality or denied a job because of your race? I have. Many times.

Have you been beaten or attacked because of your race or sexuality as others watched and did nothing? I have. Many times.

Have you ever experienced racism in a class room or when trying to get into College? I have. Many times.

Have you ever been mistaken for a maid just because you're Mexican? My Mother has. Many times. 

Have you been called "Uppity" or accused of "Not knowing your place" because you are competent at your job and question authority when that authority crosses an ethical or legal line? I have. Many times.

I mentally re-live the above mentioned events of my life and countless others at least a hundred times a day. Even more now since Trump took office.

Anyone and everyone that knows me, knows that I'm not a militant. I just take things seriously because I lived through and survived alot. In fact, I still am surviving through alot and I am cognizant of the fact, that I always will.

So, I take race, racism and homophobia seriously. I work hard not to be bitter, jaded or hateful. I fight for others just as passionately as I would for myself. 

Even though some of my friends may not be able to relate to my experiences and what I live through, we all have a notion of what is right and what is wrong. 

That's as good a place as any to start making a difference. Not just for others but for yourself, too, because when others are being oppressed and their rights taken away, it's just a matter of time before yours are threatened. 

I find dispassionate discourse difficult to engage in when you have a social, governmental and institutionalized racist and homophobic boot already on your neck. 

So yeah, I do take things personal. 

(By the way, I have fucking amazing friends who love and accept all of me, as I am. I love them for that. They are like  family.)

RELIGIOUS SOCIOPATHS

Religious sociopaths, are those with no conscience and cannot give or receive genuine emotions. Thus, they learn to feign emotional actions and reactions for the appropriate situations, circumstances or events. They are predatory in nature and as such, natural liars. 

These are the key hallmarks of religious sociopaths.

Religious sociopaths will always seek to oppress, demonize to disenfranchise  and commit atrocities based on their lies, calling those lies "beliefs" and justifying those lies by telling themselves and others, It's the will of God. 

However, GOD, Gods or the idea of GOD, is not responsible for their lack of conscience or their lack of empathy. GOD, GODS or the idea of GOD, has always been directly connected to our collective emotions, thoughts, actions and reactions as a species. This is evidenced by all cultures, races, religions, societies and governments, the world over, since the beginnings of civilization when we mass created a "anthropomorphized supreme being or beings" to subconsciously symbolize our conscience. 

Thus,

The only Church you should follow, is your own conscience. That is of course, if you have one.

"THE FALL" (A MOST BANE FILLED ENCHANTMENT.)

NOTE: ONLY TO BE USED WHEN YOU ARE UNDER SPIRITUAL, PSYCHIC AND BLACK MAGIC ATTACKS. IT IS DESIGNED TO RETURN YOUR ENEMIES ATTACKS BACK ON THEM. THIS IS A "PAY BACK" INCANTATION AND VERY DANGEROUS. FOR BEST RESULTS, SAY THIS INCANTATION 10 TIMES. DEVELOP YOUR OWN RITUAL TO PERSONALIZE IT. THIS ENCHANTMENT IS A "CHIMERA" INCANTATION OF MY PERSONAL DESIGN CONSISTING OF ANCIENT EGYPTIAN MAGICK SUMERIAN / AKADIAN MAGICK AND VOODOO.

Say out loud:

"HEH EN HEH (Ancient Egyptian word for "for a million over a million years or life times.")

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL (Sumerian / Akadian for "Holy Silver fire burn the evil person."

To my enemies, hear my call. My enemies of past, present and future, one and all.

Fall.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL

Your violence and hate towards me a covenant be. Your life force and all your energy, is forfeit to me. I send to thee, Ogoun Badagris. Fire and metal, a thousand flaming swords of Damocles to scorch your souls, you shall never be free.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL

The wrong you reap is the wrong you sow. As you wane in Ill health, my power will grow. With every full moon, your blood will flow, why such a fate has befallen you? No one will no.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL

Your mind will crack like a fractured mirror, as my clarity of will, thought and deed, becomes clearer and clearer.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL

Malediction. Deepest affliction. I scar you and bar you from all benediction. In the darkest depths I find you. With ancient words rarely uttered I dominate you and bind you. Pain and sorrow above you, below you, on both sides of you, inside you and behind you.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL

In this life and the next. The same fate reserved for all and any who dare attempt to remove my hex.

Fall.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL

To my enemies, hear my call. My enemies of past, present and future one and all.

Fall.

HEH EN HEH

ELLUM SESPU KASPUM GIRRU KASHAD GIDIM XUL."

INTELLIGENT RANT.

I post alot about politics.

I even surprise myself sometimes. When did I start to care so much about politics? I've written the White House before during the Obama Administration regarding problems with In-Home Supportive Services and payroll / wage issues. I've written the Governor of California regarding my mother's Worker's Compensation claim and how injured workers were being victimized by a rigged Worker's Compensation Appeals Board system. I've advocated for the disabled here in Lompoc writing and communicating with Mayor Bob Lingle asking for lower bus fares and to make disabled services more affordable for the low income disabled, senior citizen community. I am not an arm chair activist. I've worked for Santa Barbara Child Support Services Division, SB County Alcohol Drug and Mental Health Clinic, The Multi-Senior Services Program, The Geriatric Assessment Program and other Private, Non-profit and religious Social Services. I'm also a Drag Queen whose performed for charities and benefits that helped raise money for the neonatal unit for Santa Barbara Cottage Hospital. I am currently a paramedical (Surgical Wound Care, Colostomy and Ileostomy Care.) In-Home Supportive Services Caregiver. Needless to say, I put in work.

But I have to say, my intrest in politics grew with the advent of Obergefell v Hodges. (Gay Marriage.) Then Micheal Brown was shot in Ferguson, Missouri. After that, the deluge of African-Americans killed by police. Then the Trump campaign happened. He called Mexicans Drug Dealers and Rapists. After that shit storm, he became President and I vowed to become an avid and voracious consumer of political information. I have no choice in the matter. As a gay man, my rights are under constant attack. As a man of color, I am seen as a threat and again, my civil rights are under constant attack.

Also, politics intrest me because America intrests me. I love my country. Why would I love America? A Mexican,  African-American, Gay, effeminate male who has been the victim of every racist and homophobic slur imaginable since childhood? Love this very racist country? Why?! Well, thats because I'm an American and I'm a fighter. I've never been afraid of the "good fight". The "Good Fight" is fighting for justice, for equality, equity, for civil, equal and human rights and fighting for those who can't fight for themselves by teaching, sharing my experiences and opinions, standing up to all things oppressive, listening to others, respecting the opinions of others while holding true to my own while allowing for my opinions and ideologies to change and evolve as I assimilate new paradigms and learn.

America, to me at least, is a country of fighters, survivors, protectors, defenders and resisters of oppression. It's my home and my ancestors home. I do a disservice to my home, if all I do is see the evil in it without trying to change it. I do immeasurable harm, if I only recognize my woes and hurdles, doing nothing to help my brothers and sisters with theirs. I fight against racism, bigotry, mysoginy, hate, religious superiority and intolerance, greed, the lack of compassion and an absence of ethics. In this era, some are trying to rebrand these character flaws as patriotism. These qualities are all hallmarks of terrorism, not patriotism. They are vices not virtues. These are not American qualities. On the contrary, these are forms of cowardice, knavery and weakness, all of which are completely un-American.

So, I share my posts, my passion, my experience, my heart, my soul, my tears, my hurt, my rage, my hopes my fears and my love knowing what affects me, will eventually affect you directly or indirectly in the fullness of time because we are all one, sharing this earth and experiencing this life together.

I post about politics because in the future when our children and our children's children ask, "How did we get to this point?" They deserve for us to be able to answer their questions, intelligently.

Because they're going to need an answer from people who gave a damn and tried to fight, the good fight.

Whew...! Rant over. 😘💗✌

"I AM FIRE." A DJINN LOVE POEM / ENCHANTMENT.

I am fire. 

I keep at bay all manner of harm. I burn bright to keep you warm. I can dry your tears even stop them from falling as I give you light during the night, stilling your heart through any storm.

I am fire.

The kind that reminds you of the passion inside, that you thought had left you. The type of fire that blazes fierce and free but that people can't help but to rub their bodies next too. Mine to yours yours and yours to mine. Untamed. Like two dry branches and their unbridled friction destined to erupt in flames.

I am fire.

The kind that makes like, lust and love become one. The kind that banishes demons and ignites sexual appetites, making climatic explosions, brighter than the interior of any sun.

I can make you yearn. Yearn for a release you haven't really earned. I'm a fire so deep inside of you, taking you to distant states of pleasure and exotic ecstacies, you lose the will to return. My words, my caress, my eyes and my lips disrobe your very being, leaving your soul bare. I will bring you to your ecstacy if you dare and if you share. Hold my hand as I take you there?

I am fire.

A fire that protects you from the fears you've given powers too. Damn your fears with power over you! I empower you and devour the power you've given away, only to give it back to you. 

I am fire.

My flames lick your neck and the neglected and disrespected parts of your body. I'm the fire that through pure rapture itself, can seduce your spirit, mind and soul and make you feel godly.

I am fire.

A fire you cannot see or visualize how it becomes me. You can only feel the heat of my effigy until you feel the moist warmth, of my inner-self. I savor the flavor of your inner-self. As I enter your secrets, you enter mine and after a privileged period of time, we crescendo into each other and in so doing, we both become someone else.

I am fire.

As we whisper to each other relishing our mutual sweet healing and release...

"I'm a fire."

I REMEMBER. (POEM ABOUT PAST LIVES.)

POEM ABOUT PAST LIVES...

I remember...

I was a woman once. My silent tears fell on the plains as braves rode away to fight. Enemies came to our camp like theives in the night. They killed the elders, women and children in their sleep and burned our inipi's. I remember dying,  burning while hearing their screams. I can still feel them. My lover was killed in battle so far away. I never told him I loved him. I can still feel his shadow.

I once was a priest in the lands of the pyramids to the east. I was silenced when I spoke of science and the divinity of man. To reveal that GOD was within all men, not just the Pharoah or the wealthy was my sin. At least that's what they told me when they killed me.

I once was a healer. I loved to pick herbs and roots. I healed people's troubled relationships with their personal truths. I banished demons and kept them at bay. I danced with the Moon by night and prayed to the cross by day. But the cross couldn't turn me. I could never renounce my love of life, nature and spirit so they called me a devil worshipper and the servants of the bloodstained cross, burned me. I can still smell my burnt flesh in the air. It smelled like the cooking of meat and  the burning of hair.

I once was a Queen that became Pharoah. Hated because I wasn't a man. I refused to yield power to a man and I chose to rule like a man. So strong was I, that I was accused of trying to become a man. Back then, men feared the power of a woman, so they buried my reign beneath pyramids and sand.

I remember...

Before all these lives I was a watcher. I came to this world and married man's daughter. I taught that man is part of what GOD is, giving hope and the ability to evolve. To my terror, that was considered an error. I was one of many to become demonized for bringing light to the dark places of men's hearts and souls. Bringing light was some how criminalized while the false idea of being born into sin was somehow spiritualized. I was labeled one of the many, fallen light bearers.

I remember.

SPIRITUAL AWAKENINGS 2017

Just an FYI to all my spiritual and magical peeps. There are spiritual energies being activated that are triggering massive psychic and spiritual awakenings in the population. Areas especially affected are:

● Your Karma

● Your Conscience 

● Your relationships  (especially karmic relationships!)

● Your personal and professional goals and an awakened sense of destiny.

● Your shadow. (Confronting your own negativity and the negativity of others. Acknowledging your own negativity before you acknowledge the negativity in others is key in any spiritual or psychic development. Also, special emphasis should be given to this because confronting negativity is just as important as HOW you confront negativity. This is a problem area for me. Lol!)

● Seeing through illusions. Yours and the illusions projected by others. 

● Resolution of past life karma that we all have carried over into this one. 

Everyone on the planet is going through this right now to varying degrees of intensity. Some are having an extremely violent reaction to these internal, spiritual and psychic growing pains which is part of our spiritual evolution and are becoming mentally, emotionally, psychically and spiritually unbalanced. 

Others are noticing dormant abilities are awakening and their sensitivity to intangible is becoming sharper with there spiritual awareness much more present and focused. This is a global event. You are not going crazy! Stay focused, cleanse yourself and your environment, daily as not to absorb the pain, confusion fear of others. Help and heal those you can through this process but protect yourself and stay true to your heart, mind, spirit and path. 

Bringing light to dark places,

Grimoire a.k.a. "Me." 💗

"HEDJ BENNU " THE SILVER PHEONIX INCANTATION

EGO SUM UNUM CUM ARGENTUM PHEONIX. HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: Latin "I am one with the silver pheonix." Ancient Egyptian "Hedj" = Silver, Bennu = "Pheonix".

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian " The soul of Amun Ra, the silver pheonix." (The pheonix was seen as the symbol of the soul of Ra. The hidden power of universal creation was Amun. The power of Amun is Ra.)

BEHEN SEBAU HEH EN HEH.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "Crush the evil one over a million over a million years."

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "Soul of Amun Ra, the Silver Pheonix."

BEHEN AMMIT HEH EN HEH.

Ancient Egyptian Ancient Egyptian "Crush the devourer of souls over a million over a million years."

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: The soul of Amun Ra, the Silver Pheonix.

BEHEN APEP HEH EN HEH.

Ancient Egyptian Ancient Egyptian "Crush the bringer of chaos over a million over a million years."

BA EN AMUN RA. HEDJ BENNU PERT EM ANKH AY.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "Soul of Amun Ra. The Silver Pheonix come forth through myour life."

BA EN AMUN RA. HEDJ BENNU PERT EM SEKHEFET BA AY.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "Soul of Amun Ra. The Silver Pheonix come forth through my seven souls."

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU PERT EM AKHU AY.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "Soul of Amun Ra. The Silver Pheonix come forth through my light."

ANIMUS DE VIVUS LUMEN PRIMUS. CREATOR DE OMNIS EX ASTRI AD HOMEN.

TRANSLATION: Latin "The soul of the first living light. Creator of all from stars to man."

VITA ULTRA VITA ET LUMEN ULTRA LUMEN. SEKHEMU ULTRA SEKHEMU. MA'AT ULTRA MA'AT. MAGNUM ANIMUS ULTRA OMNIS ANIMAE. OMNIS UNIVERSAE SUM UNUM. UNUM EST MAGNUM OCCULTUS POTENS AMUN RA. MAGNUM PRINCIPIUM ET MAGNUM FINIS.

TRANSLATION: Latin "Life beyond life. Light beyond light. Power beyond power. Truth beyond truth. Great soul beyond souls. All Universes are one. The one is the greatest hidden power Amun Ra. The great beginning and the great end."

HEDJ BENNU

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian " The Silver Pheonix."

EGO SUM UNUM CUM ARGENTUM PHEONIX. HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: Latin "I am one with the silver pheonix." Ancient Egyptian "Hedj" = Silver, Bennu = "Pheonix".

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: The soul of Amun Ra, the Silver Pheonix.

BEHEN SEBAU HEH EN HEH.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "Crush the evil one over a million over a million years."

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU AY.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "I am the soul of Amun Ra, the Silver Pheonix."

BEHEN AMMIT HEH EN HEH.

Ancient Egyptian Ancient Egyptian "Crush the devourer of souls over a million over a million years."

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "I am the soul of Amun Ra, the Silver Pheonix."

BEHEN APEP HEH EN HEH.

Ancient Egyptian Ancient Egyptian "Crush the bringer of chaos over a million over a million years."

BA EN AMUN RA HEDJ BENNU AY.

TRANSLATION: Ancient Egyptian "I am the soul of Amun Ra, the Silver Pheonix."

EGO SUM UNUM CUM ARGENTUM PHEONIX. HEDJ BENNU.

TRANSLATION: Latin "I am one with the silver pheonix." Ancient Egyptian "Hedj" = Silver, Bennu = "Pheonix".

MY DARK SIDE. POEM ENTITLED "BACKFIRE"

You tried to use grave yard dirt to bury me in effigy. I'm not dead. I can feel you cutting the heads off voodoo dolls, ritually beheading me. All that and I'm still here and your right to fear the bum rush. I telempathically crush your Chakras one by one and feed on the light that was designed to guide you through the night. When you was so busy invoking spirits that walk with me, they were the ones that told me you was the one steady sweating me.

I gets cold. I gets darker than the hole in your soul. Mine is the voice that whispers in the back of your mind making you insecure, unsure about everything and everyone, making you make enemies out of your loved ones as you completely lose control.

Boo, you fucked up because I'm always hungry.

So, I slowly devour what borrowed power you took from spirit, elemental, nature, witch or book. I leave you constantly shook as I crack your aura with telepathic machetes because im petty and feed on your astral and psychic body. I take your Ti Bon Ange to the abyss where it stays lost and where you never will have the balls to look.

Anyone who try's to help you? My KA and KHAIBIT will beat them too. My soul is Sumerian old and descended from the lillitu. Woe to all who don't know that if anyone gets in my fucking way, It'll be a buffet because I'll eat them too.

While you work with oils and herbs, I damage your mind with my thoughts and verbs. Remember, when you curse me with fetishes and bindings, I become the deity you worship and I destroy you with whispered words.

I shape-shift into the power you want most and turn against you. I possess you and ride you like the loa in a voodoo ceremony to grind and press you.

I drink your power, your will, your life force, hopes and dreams. Poor thing, you underestimated me apparently. As I rip out your sanity I promise, I'll fill the empty space up with the very same grave yard dirt you tried to use to bury me.

MAGICAL POEM "UNTITLED"

(I wrote this right after I left two peanut butter cookies as an offering to the spirits. I've been leaving cookies out on a table in my back yard for three days now. In the morning there all gone. They could be birds but I still like the symbology.) 😀😉😁💗

I used to cry because I always thought I was broke. I never once took the time to thank the sun because my soul has always been sun soaked.

Heyokah has always followed me. My people call him Ellegua the divine child. The trickster, the teacher who always taught me to stay wild.

For a time, I was ruled by fear. Imprisoned by my own dark and bitter tears for years. He reminded me, for a time he blinded me so I could see in the darkest places of my being to find the light within me. He told me "You're a Queen within a King, magic you bring to everything! Love, power and courage you will find in me and also, within yourself because a coward you are not designed to be!"

I was built for struggle just as I was built for joy. The eldritch magic that forged me, was tempered by a thousand over a thousand ancestors who dared to survive and bring forth a thousand over a thousand, loves before me.

The daughter of Ra has always kept me well. I have no fear of heaven or hell as she has taught me to weave my realities with spirit, heart and mental spells.

Oyà my spirit mother. Elemental, warrior and gate keeper. She keeps me warm by reminding me of my fire within and making me a light keeper.

She told me long ago: "Pay heed! You may not have what you want but you have what you need." I age slowly, so I can afford to be  patient. Anything which is achieved to quickly will wither just as quickly, the inevitable curse and consequence of speed.

I have food, a roof, warmth and love. I can smile, dance, help others, helping my family and my mother while retaining the grace and favor by all that which is above.

Fear no longer controls my soul. I can stand in the darkest night of the soul and hear the screech owl screech and know, he is there not to incite fear or dread but to protect, inspect and teach. Sharing wisdom and power with the young, from the old.

THE MAGIC OF OFFERINGS.

A MAGICAL THOUGHT...

In Santeria the Orishas or Elemental Ancestors are very similar to the "Tuatha De Dannan" of Ireland or, the faery folk. 

The newest episode of AMERICAN GODS, inspired me to reconnect with my ancestors and elementals who have always taught me, protected me and watched over me and my family. The episode reminded me of when I was a neophyte, I used to leave offerings of bread, cookies, water, or dinner plates of food for the Ancestors outside. If we were running low on food, I'd leave three "tortillas con mantequilla" (tortillas with butter.) For them. One time my mother left four apples for Shango, and in the morning when she opened the door to collect the plate from the garden, she found one apple left in front of the door. Shango, the elemental of fire, thunder, passion and magic loves apples. His sacred number is 4. 

The Ancestors have there traditional favorite foods, fruits, symbols and objects but the power is not really in the item being offered. It's in the offering itself. An offering is only as powerful as the intent behind it. For example you yourself, would better appreciate food given in friendship and love, as opposed to being given money with strings attached to it.

The old ones, our ancestor's the elementals and the faery folk of Earth, Air, Fire, Water and Spirit give to us without reservation but our connection to them is broken when we don't give back. 

Giving Offerings is a magical act or gesture, based on "Equivalent Exchange". We open ourselves up to openly receive life's bounties when we give openly to each other, to the spirit world, the elemental world or the dead. 

All ancient cultures knew this magical trade before it became lost in the new world. 

I think I'm going to bake some traditional Irish Soda bread for the Tuatha De Dannan this week and leave it for the faery folk. 

After all, my last name is Kennedy. 😁🍀🍞🍵

YOU MATTER

Remember,

there is more love in this world than hate. We just don't see it as much because it doesn't make the headlines as much. Media has become the new Roman Coliseum of 21st Century. Kindness, respect, love, acts of mercy and compassion make for poor headlines. Hate, racism, violence, scandal and pain has always been the number one spectator sport. Every negative emotion that we experience, that we cause others to experience, desensitizes and divides us from one another. It makes us easier to manipulate and control.

It's important to be informed and yes, the evil's of the world do exist. We shouldn't turn a blind eye to it, lest we become part of the problem.

But truth be told, we have been conditioned by society, religion, educational institutions and government to penalize the many for the actions of the few. Especially, when they are different then us. Let us not be fooled by the deluge of hate being shown to us daily. Love, kindness, self-respect and respect for others exist, in the familar and the unfamiliar. Compassion, healing, unity, solidarity, brotherhood, sisterhood, humanity, genuine charity for others and empathy, all exist. There is proof of this fact.

It's you.You are living, thriving proof of this undeniable fact.

MY SHADOWS GONE TO GROUND

Poem (conquering shadows.)

"MY SHADOWS GONE TO GROUND."

This shadow.

This shadow I've carried for so long, I've come to see it as an abusive lover. They lied to me. They said any pain I've suffered would make me tougher.

So much darkness inside sometimes I feel as if I could drown. Hurt and hate.
This is what my shadow is filled with so I battle my shadow daily. It's crazy that I'm not crazy, because somtimes I want to fall down. But, I'm too afraid to be called lazy so nighlty, I slay my shadows so my shadows go to ground.

What I became was a cold mother fucker.

Would it shock you to know, that when I was young, I loved flowers, dancing, singing and walking with a switch in my hip? But I was corrected on how to walk and talk so much so, I began to stutter and choke back the words I spoke afraid they were to feminine making me bite my lip.

Hearing words like faggot, nigger, mayatè since the age of six. Being told that I like dicks, when all I really wanted to do is play with dolls and do magic tricks.

Grew up thinking I was wrong. I don't recall exactly the moment I stopped singing songs. Feeling like "Don't touch me because I might like it if you do." Scaring people off because "If you stay I might want you to." Trying to be invulnerable while being vulnerable is hell. Always wishing to fall in love but hurting because you never fell.

This is what my shadow is filled with so I battle my shadow daily. It's crazy that I'm not crazy, because somtimes I want to fall down. But, I'm too afraid to be called lazy so nighlty, I slay my shadows so my shadows go to ground.

I secretly hate it when people stare. Because underneath the facade I project, I have a tremendous lack of self esteem, I'm engaged in a perpetual war.  A war between, me and my self-respect, doubting myself at every fucking crossroad or open door.

Am I worthy? Or am I just thirsty? It was cool to be lost in my twenties but a bitch is pushing 40 (shut up!). No one can hurt me like I can hurt me.

I know I act like my shit don't stink but hey I'm an actress. Sometimes I feel like papa and mama would've been better off wiping me off the mattress.

That's my shadow talking. It has a lot to say. It tells me I'm too ghetto, I'm too Feminine, I'm too ignorant, I'm too gay.

This is what my shadow is filled with so I battle my shadow daily. It's crazy that I'm not crazy, because somtimes I want to fall down. But, I'm too afraid to be called lazy so nighlty, I slay my shadows so my shadows go to ground.

This shadow.

This shadow I've carried for so long, I've come to see it as an abusive lover. They lied to me. They said any pain I've suffered would make me tougher.

This is what my shadow is filled with so I battle my shadow daily. It's crazy that I'm not crazy, because somtimes I want to fall down. But, I'm too afraid to be called lazy so nighlty, I slay my shadows so my shadows go to ground.

Anubis & me.

I just finished speaking with Anubis during meditation. 

He showed me a memory of a dream I had when I was 18 years old. I was crawling in a field of wheat. It just seemed natural for me to be crawling. Anubis was walking beside me. We talked about many things. His life, his message and his duties to humanity and to Isis. 

He told me that I had alot in common with him. I didn't understand that at the time but now I realize he meant that I would be taking care of my mother as her guardian and protector in the future which is now my present, like he did for Isis. 

We laughed, faux-argued and laughed some more. Finally, it dawned on me that I was crawling. I stopped and he stopped at the same time. I got up and I saw the sky. I closed my eyes and felt the heat of the sun and the gentle breeze caress my face with its coolness. It felt beautiful. I slowly opened my eyes and I saw the endless field of golden wheat swaying with the breeze. I finally saw Anubis, not from the ground on which I crawled but eye to eye, as an equal. 

I realized he never intervened or looked down on me while I was crawling. He never judged me or belittled me. He treated me with kindness and waited patiently for me to evolve to the point where I could get up and stand and walk upright, on my own. This way he didn't cheat me out of my evolutionary process all the while protecting me as a learned to stand and walk. Again, on my own. 

"Better?" He asked me.

"Better." I answered. 

"Shall we continue?" He put his hand out, inviting me forward. 

"Thank you, yes."

He smiled and continued to talk to me as I woke up to a new day. 

I'm glad he showed me that memory that I had buried in my subconcious. It healed me.

Psychokinetic Energies & Entities...

TO MY FUTURE HUSBAND... (A poem.)

TO MY FUTURE HUSBAND...(A poem.)

I used to envy the weak. Because it seems, they have the ability to settle for anything.

I couldn't.

I wouldn't.

I waited for you because I knew before even knowing you, that you were my everything.

The smell of you provokes my passion.

Your eyes see through me like the fates see through destiny and it frightens me because, no one has been able to see the inside of me.

Like you do.

You see me.

The timber of your voice awakens me and holds my attention with your Masculine affection. I knew before I met you that you and only you, would appreciate my inner Feminine.

I've never given my heart, my body and my soul to a man I respected. So, my spirit is still quite virgin. I've only known pretenders and emotional thieves that expertly eviscerated my ability to trust, with the skill of a surgeon.

You heal me with your touch, your affection and your passion. You are my miracle in action. Loving you with the entirety of my being is instinctual and has become my most natural reaction.

I see you.

You are my sword.

I am your shield.

You are in my hand and I am in your hand. Many may not understand that it took lifetimes living without you but the miracle is, in this one? I am finally yours and you are finally, my man.

THE RIGHT AND LEFT HANDED PATH IN OCCULT & SPIRITUAL PRACTICE.

ASCENSION 2017 (My thoughts on Ascension and the global obstacles we are facing.)

"PSYCHIC VAMPIRISM" (The dark side of psychic & empathic abilities.)

Why I refuse to do Love Spells (A true Story.)

This is a true story...

I had a friend once who asked for a love spell. He broke up with his girlfriend and he was heart broken. My spirits said no, but I felt bad for him. I bugged my spirits on his behalf and they told me he was beating her. I asked my friend and he admitted that he was but he was going to anger management and learned his lesson. My spirits told me to warn him that if I did this spell and if he got back with her to treat her like gold because if he put hands on her again, the particular African Goddess of Love I would be working with, would be very harsh with him and her punishments are severe. He agreed. I did the spell for him. He got back with his girlfriend. They even got married!

A couple of years later, they divorced and he came back asking for help. I asked if he beat her again. After a while of vague answers, he finally admitted that he was. But he had learned his lesson and still loved her very much and he wanted her back. I asked him if he remembered what the Spirits and I, told him about what would happen if he beat her again. He said he didn't, but I knew he was lying. I told him no, I couldn't help him and that anybody who tried would pay the same price he would for betraying his wife's love and trust as well as for betraying the Covenant of the African Goddess spirit of love.

He died a couple of years later.

I learned a few things from that.
Becareful with love spells and never betray the one you love. I learned abuse of anykind, is a betrayal and betrayal can be deadly. I also learned that the West African Goddess of love named Oshun, always keeps her promises.

I don't do love spells anymore.

A little personal info about me...

A little inside look into my magical world and info about the part of me that many can't see.

EASY & SIMPLE SPELLS AGAINST BLACK MAGIC, PSYCHIC AND SPIRITUAL ATTACKS

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GOOD, EVIL and YOU...

When we are young, we are taught to believe that evil is as simple as the opposite of good. We are taught that Good is in a constant war with Evil. Superhero versus Super Villain. Christian versus Heathens. Cowboys versus Indians. The hell bound versus the Heaven sent. The sinful and the damned versus the faithful and the saved. Black versus White. We have been generationally conditioned to battle anything we have been taught to fear. Orthodox Religions and Governments have always known this and so they reinforced and conditioned our Ancestors  with a pathological fear of evil. What is evil psychologically? Anything and everything that threatens the established and accepted norms of society, religion, government and class.

It's only as we get older, that we begin to understand that evil is much more complicated and abstract. Evil becomes some how more inclusive and good seems to becomes more exclusive. It becomes even further convoluted when we find that what we thought was good is infact evil for others and what we have long considered evil, is actually good from another's perspective.

Slavery was once normalized by religion and Government and considered good. The Genocide committed against Native Americans during America's colonization was considered good. It was even justified by being called "Manifest Destiny" which was endorsed by both Religion and Government. The Genocide of the Jweish people in Germany was considered good and endorsed by other countries at that time by their refusal to intervene or acknowledge it. It's only as we evolved, did we learn to see that these things were infact, evil. Sadly, a large part of the world still views these things as good.

Oppression and bigotry under the guise of patriotism and nationalism, is evil. The demonization of "the other" (Other cultures, races, religions, sexual orientations or other ideas.) to perpetuate an agenda, to subjugate, alienate, deprive and to instill fear in order to control, is evil. To perpetuate a socioeconomic divide, create a class system to separate the masses and discourage unity, reinforce racial disparity and encourage the penalization and persecution of anyone that is different while rewarding homogeneity, is evil.

The fact, that we are sending our youngest and most impressionable, our most passionately patriotic, our most idealistic and healthiest, to other countries under the lie of promoting democracy and freedom when our country has been using Religion and Government for generations, to deprive freedom, legal, civil, human and equal rights from American citizens, all the while turning their backs on all those we've sent to other nations, when they come back broken mentally, spiritually, emotionally, economically and physically, is evil.

To promote hate, racial and religious superiority by giving it another, more palatable and unifying name like, "Alt-Right", "The Conservative Party " "Religious Freedom", "Anti-liberal" and "American Nationalists" to deceive, indoctrinate and demonize people, is evil.

To ignore, tolerate, justify, participate, endorse or to take part in hate, oppression, racism, bigotry, religious subjugation, the denial of civil, human and equal rights of others, in any passive or aggressive form, is evil.

To acknowledge these truths and to take part in fighting evil either passively or aggressively, is good.

If even one soul is enslaved, we are all on chains. If one person is religiously persecuted, we are all on danger of persecution. If someone is disenfranchised, we all sooner or later, will be. If someone is demonized, crucified, subjugated, discriminated against, attacked for being different and we do nothing, say nothing, feel nothing and accept this reality as normal, we are part of the problem. Accepting evil, is tantamount to perpetuating it on yourself and others.

I think it Evil to deprive, impede or take away the rights of others to freedom, love and ascension (in whatever they aspire to ascend to that uplifts them and the world.), while having and enjoying these natural rights for oneself. I think corrupting innocence, hope and someone's future with hate, ignorance and greed, is evil. I would dare say, these examples are the very quintessence of evil in our past and present and future.

The solution to this Good versus Evil situation? Compassion and a willingness to be a part of this world by defending it and others on it. Defending it by word, thought, spirit and actions. By being fearless and committed to protecting the human, civil and equal rights of others just as vehemently as you would be for your own.

That's as good a start as any.

"Quiero murrir un esclavo de principios no de hombre." TRANSLATED: ("I want to die a slave to principles. Not to men.") - Emiliano Zapata August, 1879 - April, 1919